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Healed from Spondylolisthesis .....

My written testimony can be found below under the title of " A Miracle in my life ...".

I don't want to gain the whole world ....

I really love this song, 'Lose my Soul' by TobyMac ..... It is so true ..... 'I dont want to gain the whole world and lose my soul' .... But I also know, that doesn't mean that God wants me to be poor and pitiable, Jesus took all sin, sickness and poverty on the cross 2000 yrs ago .... So we can all become righteous thru believing in the death and resurrection of Jesus and confessing the fact that we are all sinners in need of forgiveness, we can be free from sickness because 'By His stripes we are healed' (Isaiah 53:5) and we no longer have to live in poverty because it is conquered, it only has as much power as we allow it to yield over us ..... And poverty is not always poverty in terms of money...... it is also poverty of spirit .....
So what more do we need, We've got more than the world can ever offer ....

I am in the Best of Hands ....

I just happened to be listening to this song when I was returning home from my classes this morning and, I thought I'd share it ..... Like I said in my previous post, God is really Great, I mean only He can use the most unexpected people and incidents to cheer us up and teach us practical life lessons .... I am in the Best of Hands and those are in the hands of my Lord and Savior Jesus


Isaiah 49:15,16
15. “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!
16. See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me.

A peace that passes ALL understanding

As a little kid I always remember, being afraid of death ….. You’re probably thinking wat does a kid even know about that….. But I always had this fear, fear of the unknown ….. For lack of a better word I can call it a feeling of being doomed …..And it was frightening. But since Saturday nite, I’ve been meditating on all the wonderful things that God has done in my lyf and I don’t mean only the great healing, I mean every single thing from the small to the big, and I’ve got this joy which I know comes from MY JESUS.

I no longer fear death, I see it as being reunited with Jesus, after I have fulfilled all that He has planned for me in my lyf. I’ve spent too much time in the past trying to intellectualize why things happen the way they do. So I’ve drawn this conclusion from the Bible ‘All things work together for good to those who love God’, so I no longer worry, my future is secure, my past is erased and my present is being unraveled every moment lyk a portion of a painting, the end which can only be seen in the eyes of the Master Painter, God’s Word, the lamp to my feet guides me, it doesn’t show me the whole path, it just shows me the next step that I should take, for the rest I have faith, faith that He loves me and that He will never and I mean NEVER let me go.


Incidentally, I happened to be listening to this song at the time and it seemed really appropriate .... It's called 'Times' and the group is Tenth Avenue North. Hope you like it .....

A Miracle in my life .....

Hi !!! Everyone .........

The title of my blog may sound weird, but believe it or not all I am about to say is true.

My name is Susan, I am 18 yrs old from Madurai.God healed me of grade 4 spondylolisthesis 5yrs ago and He can do the same for you to.

 Here's my testimony:
We lived in Dubai for a long time and there I was an athlete. At the age of 8 yrs I participated in a 3 km marathon. And every athletic event I participated in I won. During my summer vacation in the 4th grade ( 2003 ) I went for ice skating classes, obviously as it was my first time I fell numerous number of times. Later on as school re-opened my teachers began to ask me why I wasn’t walking properly, and at home my parents thought that I had developed a bad style of walking, and often told me to walk properly. But I felt that my walking was perfectly normal. But as time progressed during my P.E. classes I began to struggle to run up to my usual speed.

Soon after that my parents began to take me to various doctors, to find out why my style of walking was deteriorating, the first doctor gave me a bandage tightly wrapped around my legs, saying that some times around that age children develop bad habits. But it didn't work and again we began to shuttle from one doctor to another. A friend of my parents who was a doctor, suggested the best doctor in Dubai Dr. Kerim Antoine Attari who after taking several X-rays finally diagnosed me with Grade 4 spondylolisthesis in the Lumbar Sacral region (L5 and S1). The doctor told my parents that even if I was his own daughter he wouldn't do the surgery and advised them to take me to either Germany or Switzerland for the surgery. But even then he didn't guarantee 100% success. And even if it was successful it would have to be done again when I turned 18 as by then my bones would have grown. By then my condition had seriously deteriorated. I began to walk exactly in the shape of the letter 'S', I looked like a walking zombie. I would bend my knees outward, bend backwards, walk on my toes and to balance myself I would stretch out my hands. My mum would always give me a book or bag to hold so that I wouldn't stretch my hands out. When we went out shopping or my parents would walk on either side of me and my older sis would walk behind me to hide me from the staring eyes of people.

 I couldn't walk for more than 5 - 10 mins without severe pain shooting down my legs. Every morning when I woke up, my back would feel stiff as though someone had poured cement down my back. I couldn't reach down to put my own socks. My parents purchased a triangular shaped pillow to place under my legs when I slept as I couldn't stretch out my legs.I would wake up several times every time due to discomfort. I had no idea of the seriousness of my condition coz at the time when the doctor diagnosed I was asked to sit outside. The only time I knew the way I walked was different was when I saw a side view of myself in the mirror. The doctor had given me a spinal support belt, but I hated to wear it, the climate in Dubai is really hot and so it would sweat so much that I went and cried and cried to my mum that I didn't want to wear it, that finally she gave in. This was one of the reasons that my condition deteriorated.

The doctor had also prescribes steroids as pain killer for the pain. And this is where the first little miracle during my journey began, I recall exactly one incident when I took that tablet but from then on my mum would, pray for me and say "In the name of Jesus I command this pain to leave" and after a few minutes it would be gone. My parents decided that if medical science could not completely cure my problem they would take up my case with my creator, Jesus. And so from then on whenever I had pain mum would pray with me and the pain would leave immediately.

Later on we moved to Bahrain, where I used to sing in the church choir. I would always be provided with a chair to sit because of the pain I would experience after standing for more than 5 mins. One day I decided that I would stand without the aid of the chair. We started to sing and after a few minutes, my legs began to grow numb, I held on to the microphone stand with all my strength, I knew that if I took one step forward to even reach a chair I would fall, I called my sis who was standing next to me and told her my plight. She said she would help me to a chair, but just as predicted I took one step forward and fell like a ton of bricks. I couldn't get up, the ladies in the church lifted me onto a chair and gave me some water to drink, I never dared to sing in the choir again. I was so embarrassed that I hid at the back of the church for a long time. There were two or three instances where I had lost sensation in my legs and fallen. Only later did I find out that this was a symptom of my deteriorating condition.

All this time I suffered not only physically but my mind was in chaos. I hated myself for so many reasons, I knew that my condition pained my parents, I was rejected by all my friends who were so close while I was a popular athlete, I was in continuous discomfort. During the first few months since my diagnosis, I was full of faith that God would heal me. But the as time progressed I saw people all around me, who were diagnosed with various conditions get healed and instead of my faith being enriched I got angry at God. I became this rebellious bundle of anger. One day when I was praying I got this number 3 in my head and I assumed that God would heal me in three days and so I waited, and at the end of the third day I was just the same, there was no change. We then moved to India, and I was still in the same condition, my dad took my previous reports to some doctors in Chennai, where one of the doctors asked my dad if he was an educated man, to keep me without taking me for surgery immediately.

 My parents applied to a place called as the 'Healing School' in Johannesburg, South Africa where they teach about healing from the Bible. We didn't get any reply from them for a long time. Then one night my dad called from Chennai ( my mum, sis and myself were in Madurai ) and told us what the doctor had told him and he reasoned with my mother whether they should take me in for surgery, we were also getting pressure from our family members, who were concerned about my welfare. That night my mum opened her mail and saw an invite to ' come to the Healing School ' and they resolved to take me there for prayer. So in September of 2005 we landed in Johannesburg, South Africa, from then on it was an intensive 3 week teaching from the Bible about healing, during this 3 week period I saw with my own eyes ppl with AIDS get healed, paralyzed ppl walk, and so many countless miracles. I guess after so much of unbelief on my part for a long time, seeing these miracles was like a drink of fresh water to my dry soul. At the end of the 3 weeks of teaching, a person called Pastor Chris Oyakhilome prayed and that was the first time in 3 yrs that I could put my foot flat on the ground, and from then on I progressed a little bit and then a little more and now I am completely healed.

Pastor Chris is not God. He is just a vessel who is being used by God, so don't get the wrong impression about him.

Now I play badminton and volley ball in my P.E. class at school, badminton at home with my sis and I am an absolutely normal person. There is a God who always has you on His mind. And healing is His gift to you. But the greatest gift of them all is His Salvation offered to us through His Son Jesus.  God holds in His hand the gift of healing and everything else His Word has promised all we have to do is receive it in faith. Those 3 yrs may have been painful. but they brought me closer to God and now I enjoy a close relationship with God as my Father and Friend.

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Hide Me ...

When we step out into the world, many of us put on a different face to hide the feelings which we bury deep inside our heart. But why do we do it ???

For this very reason I would like to tell you my experience with hiding. I discovered that we hide ourselves behind walls of anger, extreme sensitivity, gossiping, shyness etc. so that no one really sees who we are on the inside.

For a long time I did the very same thing. I would hide away all my feelings deep inside me and when things got bad, I would have all these pent up feelings just erupt, I'd end up saying the wrong things to the wrong person and usually end up hurting the persons I love the most. I tried for so long to put up a picture on the outside of a perfect peron and hold up an image that was acceptable to people who I so badly wanted to be friends with. See the thing is I never had a person who I could call my best friend, Of course now my eyes have  been opened and I see that all along I had a best friend forever, Jesus, who lovingly guided me through thick and thin, but back then I really wanted to be accepted by so called friends, and so I struggled quite a bit with the issue of 'acceptance', but God helped me overcome it. The point I'm trying to make is, I hid the real me under fakeness, and covered it up with the picture perfect person that I was not. All I ended up doing was supressing the unique person that God created me to be.

And this is what I want to share with everyone. STOP HIDING FROM YOUR SELF, the real you and all that God made you, you don't need to fit into soneone elses mold of perfection but all you need to do is be who God made you to be. You are a unique person created by God in His image, and if people can't accept that then, why should we bother with the trivial matter of trying to enter into their good books, but a word of caution, if we are wrong then we must accept that we are wrong. There's only a limit to what you can do on you own, and just as PROVERBS 3:5 says Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. The reality is we are all not perfect, but Jesus through His death and ressurection makes up the difference, so that when God looks at us He sees us as pure and acceptable.

2 Corinthians 5:21
God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

When I feel the pressure is too much and I can't stand it any more I go to the Word of God. So I guess I found out that the best way to stop hiding is talk to someone who can guide you to and through the Word of God, or if you feel you have no one you can trust, TELL GOD Himself, He's your Friend, your Father and everything you need Him to be.

Proverbs 3:6 :
In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight.

NEVER FORGET THAT JESUS DIED FOR YOU, HE LOVES YOU SOO MUCH, JUST TRUST HIM IN EVERY STEP YOU TAKE AND HE WILL BE YOUR GUIDE

Never Let Go .....

Recently a friend came over for dinner and we started talking about life in general, about how our spiritual life influences our regular lives. She said that she heard a pastor say "Hold on or you'll be swept away". And I realised, I can relate to that. You see unless we hold onto Christ with everything we've got we get swept away by the strong current of Satan's lies. We no longer become stagnating Christians but backsliding ones.

A few months ago our church had a youth program where the theme was 'Be Fruitful', and one of the competitions held was a preaching competiton, one of the participants quoted the Bible verse which says :

"I am the vine and you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in Him bears much abundant fruit. However, apart from me, you

can do nothing" ( John 15:5 )

In this passage our life as a christian is described as a branch of a vine, who is Jesus Christ. Now if you take the branch away from
its source and plant it else where it will not grow on its own, it cannot even stay in its present condition it will eventually wither and die. Thats what Jesus means when He says "apart from Me you can do nothing" and also what my friend meant when she said that you will be swept away. There is no middle ground, you're either supported by God's grace or you're dying.

I can give you an example from my own personal life. When I was in the 11th grade I had this girl who I called as my 'Best Friend', but
at the back of my mind I knew that she was not the true friend that I needed. But my desire to have a friend was so strong that I ignored all of God's warnings and went on with the relationship, and all the while this girl was betraying me on the side. I went out of the way to stay in this relationship and in the process was pushing God away, but then God opened my eyes to see my folly through the wisdom of my mother, so the next year as we happened to be in the same class again I cut her relationship off from my life and it was as if my relationship with God was suddenly renewed with a new bond and strength, and although I did not get a 'best friend', I know that God is in control, and more than that He is my Best Friend.

Our part of this relationship with God is so simple, all He asks is that we accept the eternal life, that He freely gives us,and continue to obey Him, but if we reject that life we will wither and die as it is written in the 6th verse of John 15. So accept the love that Jesus gives to us through His death and resurrection.




Loneliness ..... A Good Thing ????


I wrote this one day when one of my teachers was absent, my bench mate was also absent that day and so I was alone and from the back of my class I could see all of my class mates and I realized that everyone was engaged in meaningless chatter. And so I just began to ponder away on what might actually be going on in the mind of the ppl around me ( not to say that my guesses were right ). The things that ppl do and say is all a grand scheme to hide who they really are on the inside. I saw ppl laughing loudly to hide the insecurity on the inside, some ppl were so quiet maybe becoz they think that they are superior to everyone else or maybe becoz they are really really scared or hurt, then there were those who just kept on and on talking, maybe to cover up all the turmoil and confusion in their lives and hearts.

And during all this time I was reminded of the book of eclesiastes in the Bible where the author repeatedly says " Meaningless everything is meaningless ... ".

And still more thinking on this leads me to wonder where we as christians fit into all of this. In my previous post I 'The BIG Difference' I wrote about how there is a huge distinction between pleasing and obeying God, well I think at times like this, even though it is difficult to be alone, it is the only way that we can obey God. The Bible says that ' we are in the world but we are not of the world and if I pretend that I'm not a christian and laugh out loud without real joy and speak without meaning then I guess that makes me a fool. Yes, I said a fool and rather than trying to look cool among friends I rather be a fool for standing up for what I believe. But the thing is I've been foolish for a long time, following my own desires, when I should have been listening to God's voice.

I've always wanted to belong to a group, to be like others but I'm realizing, day by day, to be like Jesus I have to walk the path he did, and it started out with 40 days ALONE in the wilderness.

For me and you that means, even if the whole world is doing something, which you know, according to the Bible is wrong and even your own brothers and sisters in Christ are doing the same thing which you know to be wrong then you have to be alone, at that moment I had to be alone. But I knew that I would grow stronger and so will you if you just take this walk of faith with Jesus.

The thing is in actual fact we are not lonely, we have our Friend, Father and Guide Jesus holding our hand and leading us towards the goal, a closer relationship with God. And if we make it through this phase of life then it is not the end of the journey but the beginning of a new journey or continued strong walk with God.

Faith The First Step.

Hebrews 11:1 (Amplified)
"Now faith is the assurance of the things of the things we hope for, being the proof of the things we do not see and the conviction of their reality."
Hebrews 11:1 (GNV)
"To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for, to be certain of the things we cannot see."
This is the exact definition of faith, but according to the dictionary it is simply unquestioning confidence or trust. In Mark 2:5,11,12
5. And when Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, "Son, your sins are forgiven."
11. "I say to you, rise, pick up your bed, and go home."
12And he rose and immediately picked up his bed and went out before them all, so that they were all amazed and glorified God, saying, "We never saw anything like this!"

In verse 5 we see that Jesus after seeing the faith of the paralyzed man decided to heal him. In verse 11 we see Jesus speaking words of faith to the paralysed man.

Now we know that Jesus came to Earth as a Man. Jesus is referred to as a 'Man of Sorrows' in Isaiah and so forth. So when Jesus spoke to the paralysed man , He enacted faith. He put His entire trust and FAITH in God His father to heal the man. Jesus exercised His faith and so must we.

When Jesus spoke the words "I say to you, rise, pick up your bed, and go home." It did not get over there, the paralysed man had to exercise his faith. According to Hebrews 11:1 we should be certain of the things we cannot see. To that paralysed man walking was an impossible task and it seemed the same to the bystanders. But in verse 12 the paralysed man exercises his faith and amazes everyone around him by picking up his mat and walking out.

So the first step in making your faith work is 'Read the Word of God', the second step is to 'Obey' the Word of God. The third step is to 'Act' on what you have just heard or read from the Bible or from a pastor. We must be doers of the Word, not someone who will just nod their heads in agreement. By reading the Word of God a seed is planted in our spirit then we must water it by obeying what it says and acting on it.

When we have faith we will see miracles, when we receive miracles and share them with others, our family and friends will be touched, and once they are touched by God , they will become saved. The cycle goes on, but it all begins with that seed of FAITH which grows when watered by the Word of God and Prayer.